Birthday in Heaven  / Auntie Debbie

Hello Sara,

Your birthday on earth is almost here.  I remember when you first came home.  Believe it or not you looked just like your Dad.  You were tiny and you were a good baby.  So beautiful and so pure.  Remember all readers... 

So many people would make the same choice you made but something keeps them hanging on.  I know you were murdered.  Let me say very humbly, there is no difference between a gun to the heart or a young soul beaten down with dirty words and left with no identity or dignity, so that when you look in the mirror you don't who you are.  You are looking at a stranger.  Your soul was stolen from you and you couldn't find your way back and it was too hard to ask for help, to tell everyone that you thought of yourself as a failure and so you kept your distance for a long time and said goodbye.  You just don't know how to climb out.  You have no idea what or who is God.  Sara, I'm soooo sorry.  But now it is too late and so much fallout has ocurred.  There are many people praying about this.  The answers to this will come to pass.  God in his way and in his time will take care of this.  And there will be peace.  And no Jeremy I'm not preaching.  But do remember Job.  I hope your Bible has that in it.  Love and miss you.

But this much I know Sara,  I for one would like to celebrate your birthday up in heaven.  Glory to God that He can overcome even this.  We will all be there soon.  To my loving sister I miss you so much and I wait to see you.  Love your sister.

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Your birthday is coming!!!  / Gabbi
  Sara, your summer birthdate will be here soon... Your love for summer, the beach and the scorching sun are my fond memories of you. Remember when you'd be home and I'd be at work and you'd call to ask if you could go float around in our pool?! Your skin tone was perfect for the sun and always had GREAT color! Or, when you'd call and say you're going out to Lake Andrea with Ryan and wanted me, Marqee and Mitchel to go with... Some good memories Sista! I'm thinking about you even more this week Sara. Watch for your birthday balloons, the kids and I will be sending them to you this week. I love you and have a wonderful birthday week!  Love and miss you, Your Sister Close

Missing You  / Katie Strain (Spitzer) (Friend/CoWorker)
I am so thinking about you and missing you today!  I had such a nice visit with your family the other weekend!  Thanks for bringing us together!  I cannot believe how big your nieces and nephew are!!  It had been so long since I seen them last.  I wish I could have seen Ryan too, your mom was showing me pics and I couldn't believe it!  I miss you terribly and can't wait to see you again!  Love ya! Close

Drangonflies / Mother (Your 1 & Only Mom )

I know that you listen to me all the time when I am talking to you and of course I am getting worse at repeating myself but you'd never say anything. :)

I know you were there with us at Eric and Sam's wedding, wasn't is beautiful? In the gardens, flew dragonflies and beautiful yellow monarches ontop of all those flowers. I put 2 pink roses in the vase from you and I. Tears...

The last time we were at the PLAV - was Joey and Lisa's wedding - 4 years ago. Gabbi reminded me of that night you were terriorzed by him and the most precious moment of that night was when you got to sleep over at Gabbi's in Gabbi's bed like when you were little girls. Poor Michael had to sleep elsewhere - heeee....

Dad and I are getting ready for our big weekend with your one and only RyGuy, MJ1, MJ2 and Lexi - come join us!

Tina gave me a beautiful M&M candy jar with a beautiful DF ontop - I know you'll be dipping into the jar. I remember you always going in the snack cupboard pulling out the zip lock bags and fillin' up with goodies. RyGuy and the rest of the kids still go to the snack cupboard and do the same thing. What do a think about Julia's new DF?

Been out with Brian and Kyle - there such great men, and there is always love that surrounds us and you're in the center!

Got a surprise coming, nope I am not telling... Pastor told me I will be coming home soon...

Can't see thru my tears anymore, have to go now, You are the one who has part of my heart forever and ever. I love you baby girl OX

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Thanks for stopppign by last night.....<3  / Liz (Friend)

So I know I just lit a candle for you the other day, but this happenend last night, so I thought I would share....

First of all was as you probably know...we were in K-Town ...all the old spots......thoughts of you were everywhere..........

Last night Rob and I were in the garage, putting the bikes away...And your memorial card is on the work bench in there, I went back in the house and Ashley came back in and said Mom Dad needs you, So I went back and he says BE real quiet, so we were and he walks us over to the bench area and Sara I kid you not the biggest dragonfly I have seen all year...Bright green , the colors were beautiful...We just looked at it and I knew you were saying Hello....Ashley and Hannah(BTW Hannah is almost 6 - going into kind. -Can you believe it? You planned the Baby shower!! Oh How I wish you could see her now....)said Mom...look she is by Sara's picture...Sara says Hello.....And sure enough, I turned and looked and the dragonfly is right next to your card...How cool is that...Hello friend...I truly miss you.....<3

Its stuff like that Gina that make me believe you are still so here!!I totally and completley miss the heck out of you and wish we could be experiencing life together.....Your spirit is still so strong and vibrant...You impacted my life forever I wanted to Thank you again...for being you....

 

I love you, I miss you, I will forever keep you in my heart......<3 me

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Missing you every moment of every day!  / Mother (Mom)

I wait for that phone call and it never comes - but I do have all my memories to keep me going/alive. I tell your story everytime someone inquires; your life, dreams, hopes and aspirations. Then I learn so much more from all your friends and family.

It has been an emotional summer but YOUR FAMILY and FRIENDS bring out the best of your life!

Have met up with Kyle, Brian and Katie - you're so missed! I remember when you and Katie would walk thru our doors and I always thought you were so short compared to Katie; Katie does not agree me :) Soon all of us will be together.

Soon Ryan will be taller than me and Tommy has met my height. These nieces and nephews of yours are growing like weeds.

Come join us for Eric and Sam's wedding next weekend; fly on in as you always do; celebrate and dance with us...

I miss you baby girl; forever a piece of my heart belongs to you; I love you Sara Deen Kuhn - Perez! oxoxoxoxoxoxo

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You live on  / Mike Zapp (B.I.L.)
Sara,

We all got to spend time with Ryan this past weekend.  He is growing-up so fast.  He really is growing into a handsome young man.  I can can really see so much of you in him (you should be very proud of him).  We all stopped out to visit with you and Ryan left you some very beautiful flowers and a card which was addressed "Mom".   I can see that he does miss you so much and you will always be in his heart. 

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Praying / Mom (Mother)

Woke up this morning asking for you to join me in a day of fun and sunshine. I know you are always with me but it will never be the same. All the stories that are shared about you. I miss you with all that I am...

Thank goodness you were there yesterday with Lisa and Joey; Lisa told be the horrifying story but still in the brightness of your life you were able to touch her and the family. Thanks for being there.

I've missed Leah but just she has come back. As soon as I get the ok again I will decorating again. That is one thing that gives me pleasure. I am safe right now... not just me but all that love you are safe...

Remember your black pansies we had planted well finally the chipmucks are staying away from them and they have beautiful flowers on them.

Keeping coming each day to visit us all as we love sharing your memories.

Love you forever Your one and only Mom oxoxoxoxoxoxo

 

 

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thinkin of you  / Leah Bellis (friend)
man sara... its been awhile since i was on your page.  so many people miss you and still you are part of this world.  its amazing how there are some people that stay, even when they are gone.  they do it not so much with things they know, and certainly not with things left behind.  its the feelings left behind that keep them forever.  its the raw, intimate emotions shared between people that is what matters, what keeps those we love in our hearts forever.  theres alot i don't know, but i am learning that i am learning.  not stuff you find in books, but stuff you learn by living.  i am comforted knowing that we will see each other again, and that you are one of the lucky ones to have made it to Paradise.  but still my selfish heart misses you.  keep helping me remember, you know how bad my memory is!!!!  so much love!  leah Close

This stupid computer  / Mom The One And Only (Mother)

For days I have tried to get on and talk with you - so much to say but of course your mom is illitrate (sp?) on the computer.

It was wonderful the other day when you were here with Dad and I sunbathing - what a beautiful pic I got of that!

Jeralyn came into my life the other day and we had a nice visit - Derrick and you I suppose made that one happen. Then I come across Jeralyn's best friend - Kristen - what a small world this is.. Thanks for leading me in the right direction.

Not all is picture perfect but mom plans on making everything right for you dear; God is keeping me near you in all that I say and do....NOTHING will ever keep me away from you again; I promise!

Ryan is a straight A (one B) student - smart just like you!

I love you Baby; keep coming home to touch us - Hugs and kisses!

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This stupid computer  / Mom The One And Only (Mother)

For days I have tried to get on and talk with you - so much to say but of course your mom is illitrate (sp?) on the computer.

It was wonderful the other day when you were here with Dad and I sunbathing - what a beautiful pic I got of that!

Jeralyn came into my life the other day and we had a nice visit - Derrick and you I suppose made that one happen. Then I come across Jeralyn's best friend - Kristen - what a small world this is.. Thanks for leading me in the right direction.

Not all is picture perfect but mom plans on making everything right for you dear; God is keeping me near you in all that I say and do....NOTHING will ever keep me away from you again; I promise!

Ryan is a straight A (one B) student - smart just like you!

I love you Baby; keep coming home to touch us - Hugs and kisses!

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This world...  / Aunt Debbie

Hey Sara, You know this tribute page is nice because it is such a worthwhile way to share feelings.  I miss you terribly.  I wonder sometimes how people could just leave everything behind and leave not only the grievous moments but  before the unhappy times came in you had some wonderful times and your laugh, I can still hear it just like it was yesterday.  I am proud of those whose strength remained here and supportive and withstood by the grace of God and did everything they could to make things easier.  Papa is so sick now.  And what I notice is, it is always the same strong people even when we just want to sit down and cry and grieve.  I want to go back to the times of horseback riding with him again.  He is so peaceful now Sara.  You would have been one of the strong ones.  No matter what others think.  It takes good partners to bring out the best in their mates.  That is true love.  It took me a long time to learn that it wasn't just what I wanted or what Jon wanted, it was about God, and then him and I and the family.  There are many things not spoken here for those of you reading this.  I am not naive.  Remember this a note between and Aunt and her niece.  Things I wish I would have said.  But I do wonder how people will answer one day for the cruelty that has been paid to my family for some of the things that have been done and it is not just outsiders.  It is coming from people who say they care.  We must be discerners of men and women.  That is the difference between judgement and discernment.  Sara had that gift...Those who loved her truly knew it and some did not like it.  I love you Sara.  Stay happy and in peace.

Love Aunt Debbie

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It's always too long  / Mom Your One And Only (Mother)

We've returned safely and your angel wings have carried us all the way. Speaking of angel wings your stars are now on my body in all you kids' favorite colors; I think they're beautiful. Vince really loved them too! MO has a great tattoo artist! Dragonflies came to visit; I found your penny you tossed down from Heaven; I thought of you in your bikini (skinny you :)) basking in the sun catching those sunrays.

Life goes on but my heart still has that empty hole and it never will go away. I try soooo hard every day to fill it with memories of you and your memories do come back. Just yesterday little Marqee said "this is what Sara would do" referring to Brooke and her new butterfly sunglasses. Remember the picture of the kids when you put glasses on them - we have that picture hanging in our room.

Last night I was reading the newsletter and they had the story of the penny in there. I have that story from when you sent it to me in 2003 from Baxter and I share it with everyone that loves us; the collection of your drop - ins are adding up. Ryan loves to check out the $$$ from Heaven everytime he comes over.

Please give my love to Darrell as I know its been 3 yrs. since he went to heaven -

I cannot see anymore as the the tears flood out but we will always continue to talk

Miss you my baby - love you forever Your Mom oxoxoxoxoxoxo

 

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Happy Mothers Day in Heaven  / Auntie Debbie
Happy Mothers Day Sara.  I know you watch over Ryan and all of us.  When my father died, even though I was a child, I still to this day think of him always.  When separation comes to us here on earth, it is a physical separation, not a spiritual one.  I know Ryan thinks of you and misses you in his heart.  As a child though we may not speak of these things for different reasons, God knows our hearts and keeps our secrets.  I thank God for keeping us.  I miss you Sara, more than you can imagine.  I saw Ryan a week ago.  It was so good to see him.  I love you very much.  Love Auntie Debbie Close

Life of the party  / Mom (Mother)

We've had some busy weeks and my heart always long for you; that is one thing I can never get back is that missing part. Ryan is so like you - sense of humor and so direct with his comments - he just lets it rip - SMART!

So many memories that fall upon us - Vince just said the last rainbow he saw was with you -  Even Brooke with her laughter I remember how your laughter just lit up the room.

Every place we go we ask you for your presence and you always show up; I believe and I have faith...

Mr. D pulled out pics of you and brougt them to school to show MJ1 how much she resembled you - he sure has fond memories of you and knows you would be proud of him in his life today...

I have tried many times to put things on this site and am never successful but Gabbi said she will help me.

I love you Sara Beara... oxoxoxoxoxoxo

I will be planting your flowers again this year as those darn chipmucks dug up last years! Watch for them between the bleeding hearts - keep coming to see me

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The Masters Touch  / Noel Sauceda (not sure lol )
The Touch of the Masters Hand

Twas battered and scarred, and the auctioneer
thought it scarcely worth his while to waste much time on the old violin,
but held it up with a smile; "What am I bidden, good folks," he cried,
"Who'll start the bidding for me?" "A dollar, a dollar"; then two!" "Only
two? Two dollars, and who'll make it three? Three dollars, once; three
dollars twice; going for three.." But no, from the room, far back, a
gray-haired man came forward and picked up the bow; Then, wiping the dust
from the old violin, and tightening the loose strings, he played a melody
pure and sweet as caroling angel sings.

The music ceased, and the auctioneer, with a voice that was quiet and low,
said; "What am I bid for the old violin?" And he held it up with the bow.
A thousand dollars, and who'll make it two? Two thousand! And who'll make
it three? Three thousand, once, three thousand, twice, and going and
gone," said he. The people cheered, but some of them cried, "We do not
quite understnad what changed its worth." Swift came the reply: "The touch
of a master's hand."

And many a man with life out of tune, and battered and scarred with sin,
Is auctioned cheap to the thoughtless crowd, much like the old violin, A
"mess of pottage," a glass of wine; a game - and he travels on. "He is
going" once, and "going twice, He's going and almost gone." But the Master
comes, and the foolish crowd never can quite understand the worth of a soul
and the change that's wrought by the touch of the Master's hand.

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Today... / Gabbi

Sara, Today we are heading out to see your boy. Haven't seen him since Thanksgiving, now it's the end of April! (Way too long for our family's likin'!) I'm sure he'll have grown about a 1/2 foot. Anyway, be there with us in our travels and please be with us while we're visiting. :D  And, thank you for being with me yesterday... When I was getting dressed I put this on from you, and that on from you... Then, when I was "out in the middle of nowhere", you appeared - Thank you! It means the world to me to have the reminders that you may not be here physically, but you are. (You know what I mean. Right?) I have to go now, the tears won't stop and I need to try and get some more sleep, before the sun comes up. I love and miss you terribly Sara - Me

PS - Did you find all the chaulk art???

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Missin'you / Mom The One And Only (Mother)

At night I lie awake with my pillow of you - my mind does not stop racing of all the things I miss - the bike riding, the cleaning of the house and taking our little breaks, our tanning, the eating of a whole roll of Chip Ahoy Cookies after a race; of course dunkin' them in milk. There isn't a hour in the day that you don't come into my mind.. Yesterday I found 3 pennies, Ben's baby girl was born on the 22nd just yesterday - Noel a beautiful baby girl. Then today as Dad and I stood outside this morning a dragonfly comes flying above my head. Sara Deen Kuhn-Perez I love you.

Mr. Dean sends his love too! There is so much love here on Earth for you - it's incredible...

I miss you with all that I am... You Momma a your brother says! 

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I heard this and thought it was beautiful  / Julia (Friend)
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Happy Easter in Heaven Sara - I love you!  / Gabbi
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